Well, I think My book faze has officially wained! I really want to read, but I have zero time to sit down and read. The library only lets you renew so many times before it's time to give the book over! I think I'll just have to buy the books I want to read, that way I don't have to worry about giving it back and I will have a really cool book shelf, that is if I ever get through the first one!

My life is busy for a few reasons. I was asked to be Zeke's Room Mom (any one with any fun ideas please let me know, I'm not totally decided about Thanksgiving and Christmas), which is fun, but time consuming. I also volunteer in his class once a week. Also very fun. Just this past Sunday I was called to be the HFPE leader in our word so that's exciting. All very fun things, but I've never been one for juggling. I guess this is the perfect time for me to grow!

I guess the thing that has been wearing on me most as of late has been the future. I have always lived in the moment. I have never planned more than 9 months ahead with out someone prodding me. My wonderful husband, on the other hand, is a planner! He asks me all the time what I want to be or what I want to do in the next 5, 10, or 15 years. He hates my answer but I have no better one, I just don't know! I have no idea where we will be in 5 years! I can plan and plan but I don't think it will do a thing for him or me. Someday I will go to school and get the degree or whatever it is I want, but until then I'll just need to keep doing what I'm doing, right? I really don't see the benefit of attempting to plan one's life. It, I suppose, could be fulfilling to see your plan come into effect but I'm worried about the other outcome. I don't mean to frustrate Sam, but I think failure would be worse.

I'm going on! Sorry! I am really blessed to have a husband who cares about my future and my wants and needs. He is a really wonderful man!

Next thing, I have a child (name omitted for protection((zeke)) who seems to think he can make his own rules for life. I've tried everything! Well at least everything I could think of to help him understand that he needs to obey, just because! He really needs a reason for each and every single rule! And not just any reason it has to be approved by him! Rewards have never worked for him nor punishments. I don't know what else to do!!! Please if anyone has any suggestions on how to help him understand the rules that are in the class, let me know!!! I am just about at my wits end! He is just too smart for his own good!



I guess that's what's up with me now! And by the way aren't my boys so sweet? They really are great boys! I've just gotta learn how to shape them into the men they need to be! No biggie!